11.29.06
Confession: Break-ups Stink!
I think most of you (at least those of you that I’m aware read my blog), know that Jared and I broke up. About 3 months ago now, and I think I maybe shortcircuited the break-up heartache with the new job, and move, and am finding myself having such a hard time lately - thus the post.
Confession part A: I screen what I will write on my blog, because I don’t know if he’s reading it or not. I’m kind of tired of doing that, so tonight, at least for this brief moment I’m not going to. I’m just going to be real.
Confession part B: Man breaking up really hurts! I can totally relate to my fellow blogger uc. Everytime I turn around there is something that makes me think of him - and it stinks, cause it just hurts.
In KC, there is apparently a jewelry store named JARED - now who names a jewelry store that, I don’t know, but they have all of these commercials on with lines like “she got something from Jared”. And they play that commercial entirely too much!
Last weekend when I watched my nephew, I go to get him dressed, I pick out a particularly cool looking rugby shirt to dress him in. He’s looking so cute and sweet, until I go to burp him, and realize there is a number on the back of the shirt - 36 (Jared’s favorite number, and hockey number). Of all the numbers to put on a shirt!
I’m at JJ and Erin’s house, and she uses this little wire tool to put a candle out by dunking the wick under the wax, and then pulling it back up. She tells me it eliminates the smoke when you blow it out, something Jared didn’t like, and all I can do is wonder if he’s aware of such a tool.
I could go on, and on, and on, but I won’t. Even when you know it was right, it’s still so very hard. Please just tell me it will end, and eventually I won’t have to suffer from the random things that make me think of him.
Snuggling Up
Well, the weather has arrived as promised, and I’m safe at home.
There is a picture for you of the ice on my balcony. I came home early today to work at home (still missing some software, although I did get a fab new Intel Core Duo computer this morning at work). Glad I’m home, it was still just raining when I drove, but it made me nervous, I haven’t had to drive in it for a while. Now that I’m home I’m enjoying being snuggly, trying to get some work done.
Oh Steve, I love it because it feels like home, and it’s great to have a good excuse to be snuggly! :) Miss you OD guys!
11.28.06
Kansas City Weather
Gotta love it. I drove home this afternoon, to work the rest of the afternoon at home, and it was gorgeous out. 72º according to my car. Now here’s where the Kansas City part comes in. Tonight around 2am it is supposed to start raining, and by 11pm tomorrow night it will have morphed from rain, to freezing rain, to wintery mix, to snow. And get this it will be a whopping 8º when I wake up in the morning on Thursday.
Glad I opted for the garage at my apartment. Best go buy myself a scrapper for my car soon - I’ll likely need it tomorrow before I head home from work. I’m looking forward to my first winter storm since I’ve been back, got my Christmas tree and my fireplace all ready to go!
Oh, but another thing about KC weather is, the forcast could all change, and it could just continue to be balmy and sunny. You just never know.
11.22.06
Dr. Suess Quote
“Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don’t matter and those who matter don’t mind.” ~Dr. Suess
11.20.06
Grrrr…, Frustrating Day
Today, was such a frustrating day. It started out fine. Went to work, we celebrated a coworkers b-day with a full on buffet of treats this morning. Several people on staff, including everyone who sits around me, had been recruited to help with the customer service phone line today, as it was expected to be a VERY high call volume day. I didn’t have to help - I’m the graphic designer, they don’t so much expect me to be able to take a customer service call - and I have to admit, it was so nice! That coming from having worked jobs in the past where answering the phone was my responsibility at times - it was so nice to be declared exempt from that job.
Anyway, here’s where it starts to go downhill. I have lots of projects, all which needed to be done yesterday. I don’t however have all of my software yet. We’ll just say it was a mix-up as to what software I needed, and it didn’t get ordered until well after i had already started. So I’ve been trying to make InDesign work for everything, which, it just doesn’t. My boss has a few older versions of some programs on his computer that I can use, but he’s a busy guy, and it’s not always the easiest to coordinate when he’s going to not need his computer. Today, I had a brilliant idea - or so I thought. I don’t know why it hadn’t occured to me before, but today I realized that I could download the trial versions of the software that I need, and that it would get me by until my software came in…
Sounds like a brilliant idea, but it has been the demise of my day. I tried to download it at work (which I’m not really suppposed to do - very picky IT department), anyway the internet connection there was TERRIBLY slow, like slower than dial-up, because with the high call volume everyone answering the phones was also using the internet to get/process info. So I think to myself, I should just go home, I have some of the software that I need there, and the one piece that I don’t, I can download the trial of, and it will go so much faster with my broadband sprint card that I have. So along about 11:30ish i go into my boss’s office and tell him, I think I would be much more productive at home. He gives his blessing, I wrap up some stuff, make a list of things that need to be done before tomorrow, upload my projects to my ftp site, and head home.
When I get home, I try to download the trial version of the software that I need. My broadband card, which I usually have no problems with, is pulling down 30kbps! Grr, i stop it and start it thinking maybe I’ll get a better connection, also thinking that it will pick up where it left off. However, I realize after a few trys, that it starts over again every time. After about 2 hours, and only 18% complete, I decide I should just head to my brother’s house and use their cable high-speed internet. I’ll pull it down in no time, and be ready to work. I can’t get a hold of my sister-in-law, but low and behold I have a key, and I’m sure they won’t mind.
When I get there, I turn on my computer and start downloading at a whopping 45kbps! The internet must hate me today. I decide that since I’m going to be at their house for a while obviously, that I should let one of them know that I’m there. So I call my brother. He is as shocked as i am that their internet is not going faster, and he even checks the sprint network to see if there were issues with my cell tower (the perks of having a brother, who’s an engineer at sprint). He tells me that the tower is fine, and that he doesn’t know why my card wasn’t working faster either. So I just resolve to wait out the download, hoping that it will speed up.
My sister-in-law and kids arrive home, thoroughly surprised to see me there. I hang out with them while I wait for everything to download. Mind you I still have to pull my projects off my ftp site as well.
Long about 4pm it’s finally finished downloading the program, and I have to run to a meeting now. So I close-up my computer, go to my meeting, and then finish downloading the rest of my stuff afterwards, as the place I was conveniently had high-speed internet. As it finishes it tells me I’m running dangerously low on disk space.
I head home, try to console myself with Fazoli’s for dinner, and get prepared for a long night of work, since I have yet to accomplish anything.
I clean a bunch of stuff off of my computer and transer it to my external drive. I go to install my software, and to my surprise instead of the install wizard i get winzip, and it wants to know where i want to unzip the stuff too. Silly me, i just stick it on my desktop, and it unloads 12 files on my already cluttered desktop. I’m not really sure which one to click to install it now. I try one, and it seems to work, but when I go to open the software later, it says a fatal error has occured. I then uninstall it, and try again. This time I created a folder to unzip stuff into - and low and behold in the folder is a setup file, I click it and everything installs beautifully.
I can finally work now that it’s 9pm. I open my first project, and what do you know, i’m missing a font. Silly me, I forgot to ftp my fonts.
That’s when I just gave up. It apparently just wasn’t meant to be. Grrr, and entire day, and nothing accomplished.